ph: Picshut Photography + weheartit
Saturday, March 31, 2012
Friday, March 30, 2012
like a frightened rabbit
ph: Citati
I didn't even recognize him at first glance, a grey scarf covered most of his face, his blue eyes was the part of him I could see. I sat down beside him on the seat, picking up a quite boring book from my bag.
I think it took me 10 seconds for me to realize it was Him. Ten inches away sat the person I had spent two years dreaming and crying endless nights for. Ten inches away.
His hair was uglier than last I saw him, much greasier; guess he uses hair wax nowadays. At the station before where he really lives, he got out of his seat, hurried to the door and ran out to the platform. Like a scared rabbit. Just like old times when he didn't tell me he was afraid of a serious relationship. He just ran away. Like a frightened rabbit.
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
scars
ph: Anja Mulder
What do you do about first loves? Where do you put them in your heart? Where do you put them in your mind? He will always be a scar like the one from summer camp permanently tarnishing my unblemished skin. Scars are ugly. They are the remnants of a painful, bloody mess. Physical and emotional wounds result in the same consequences. Just because this scar is on my heart and not on my skin doesn’t mean there’s any less of a story or significance. Actually, this invisible wound has a much darker, dismal, severe story to tell. It is far more painful than actual gushing blood and spilling guts resulting from adolescent clumsiness. I hardly ever notice the scar on my leg; I only remember it is there when someone asks about how I got such a gash. I wish I could do that with my heart. Only, no one would observe this internal mark, so it would never be brought up again. I think my mentality about this scar is flawed. I must think about it like my leg. The event happened; it hurt badly; I cried; but it has not affected me in any way ever since the stitches came out and the skin molded itself back together. It’s just there. Nothing more; nothing less. He will always be there to some extent. He co-piloted my youth, so undoubtedly, when I reminisce on those days, he will be in those recollections. But he will just be there. Nothing more; nothing less.
My heart has somehow managed to repair itself; the pieces I’ve haphazardly stitched together over the past year have somehow managed to mend. The blood once escaping profusely, depriving me of life and exuberance, is now coagulating. My heart has a beat. But it isn’t the same heart I had before this debacle. It has his name permanently engraved there. Like lost lovers’ names on an old tree. But, the tree still thrives regardless of the deep cuts into its flesh; its foliage is green and lush. This must signify that I can still flourish, despite his mark on my heart.
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
Monday, March 26, 2012
not knowing
ph: weheartit
Well first of all, I just want to say that I really like you even though I dont know you that well. I hate how I have to scrutinize every single detail on your facebook just to get the teeniest amount of assumptions and false hopes about you. I hate how I can spend hours on your page reviewing over the same comments that you have written, or listening to every music video that you post and reading over the history of every single artists that you claim to "like" on facebook just to squeeze the last ounce of virtual information that I can get out of you. I hate how I've scrolled down to the first ever post that you made on facebook, circa 2007. I hate how every time I'm on facebook, my fingers automatically start typing the first letter of your name. It's kind of creepy that facebook saves and remembers the names that you input into your search engine, and I hate how the first name that pops up out of all the the people i know whose names start with an E, is yours. I hate how when I see that you posted something 8 minutes ago, I quickly check my chat and see if you're on because I embarrassingly hope that one day you'll strike up a conversation despite the fact that I know you never will. I hate how it was the hardest thing for me to "like" one of your statuses because I was afraid that you would "read" my like the wrong way or interpret it in ways that I wouldn't want you to... ITS A FUCKING LIKE .. WHATS WRONG WITH ME? I hate knowing everything about, even your past. I know so much about you I feel like such a fucking creep. I've been on your dad's facebook. yeah, I went there. And I found pictures of you when you were pre-pubescent. You're cute. I hate how facebook is the only thing that I can judge you on, it is really fucking pathetic. I hate thinking about you and dreaming what life would be like if you knew everything about me, or if we could have one deep, meaningful conversation together- not those 3 second "hey, whats up" at the libraries, or the same exact conversations that always end up with the our intended majors and the ratings of our current classes and professors that we are taking. I hate knowing that you are probably not thinking of me or probably having a blast at one of the shows that you are "attending" according to facebook. I hate how I picture myself with you but have this shameful implication that you are too cool for me based on the people you hang out with or the music you listen to. I mostly hate that I dont know you, I dont know you at all and my mind is flowing with these false hopes, stupid assumptions, and ridiculous imaginations about your life. But I will always remember our first encounter at the train, I know that you smiled and were nice enough to wave back. And the next day, when I introduced myself, you seemed like an interesting, genuine boy. And then the other few times at the library when I saw you and we had a short talk only because I did not want to be rude having my friend wait for me right when my knees started getting weak, as I drowned in your baby blue eyes. But I will NEVER EVER forget the time I lost track of time and missed half my class because we talked about random shit, shit that doesnt even matter, and I enjoyed every minute of it, and honestly I know you did too. I found out that you had family in LA, where I live, that you dont drive, like me, that you tested out of a required freshman English class because you're so god damn smart. However, the moment you said my name while attempting to tease me with a rhetorical question, my heart literally skipped 5 beats, and I tried my hardest to keep myself from smiling. Sometimes I just wonder if you ever feel the same. If I ever cross your mind, just even for a second. I hate not knowing, but I guess that's what makes this feeling so intriguing. Maybe if I or you had the actual balls to do something about anything, we can be something. But, maybe this is just me again getting lost in my pathetic thoughts. What if you're not even half the person I thought you are, or if all this gathered info from your facebook is not an accurate description of who you actually are. Whatever, I will leave it to the talks that we've had, the looks that we've given each other, and the sincerity in our conversations. I guess ignorance really is bliss, and I will just have to find out for myself.
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Saturday, March 24, 2012
choose you
ph: Elisa N.
i really think you should know,
that of course i would choose you, always,
even though I love the other ones so, so much.
but I must protect my heart or it will never dare to love again.
because even though I love you and would do just about everything for you
you don't even love or respect me as much as to say that we're going to be friends when school's over.
and you will only hurt me even more than now.
but if I choose you every time
I won't have my other beautiful friends next to me when you break me
- once again and even more than you have already done.
don't you see?
I must take care of my heart,
take care of my friends
and sure, you're a friend who'll probably always be in my heart
but you don't deserve it.
you really don't. I would've liked you to though, because (I'll say it once more just because finally now I can admit it's true) I love you.
But I have to take care of the ones who really deserve my love.
and this hurts.
because for some weird reason I would like to choose you.
every time.
Friday, March 23, 2012
Thursday, March 22, 2012
a bond
ph: weheartit
They all knew before we knew.
They saw us sitting together at a sports center, cracking rude jokes and rocking back on our haunches when we laughed. I would cover my mouth; he would clap and stamp his gleeful feet on the dirty floor. They saw us the next day, sweating in the desert heat and lazing around by the hotel pool. We talked of travel, of home and of family while people buzzed around us; we shared in-jokes and drinks from the bar. They saw us leave together, heading back to hotel for more wine and to change. Then, with livers brimming and eyes wandering, they watched us lose each other in the crowd. I've felt lost ever since.
It's been one month today since we were last face-to-face, but mere minutes since we last spoke. My life has become a mess of technology - text, email, IM, Skype and phone calls - anything to get me closer to this person that I find so funny, so alluring, so attractive and so heart-warming. I write him postcards, send care packages, email photos, text "goodnight". He writes me prose, sends me music, emails photos, texts "goodnight". I tell him about my pillow shield, shaped like his protective arm as I rest my head on his chest. His set up is quite similar - a pillow yin to my yang. Every story, every laugh, every quip and every reference brings me one step closer to knowing a person who is more in tune with me than I ever thought possible. We talk of being misunderstood by our peers, stave off tears and plan the years we will have together; there will be many. We giggle and hide behind our hands as we agree that Shakespeare was onto something with all of that yearning stuff. We buy lottery tickets and save for plane tickets. We laugh. We love.
Every morning I awake, torn by bitter-sweet thoughts - I am one step closer to spending summer with my love, but am spending another September day freezing in this chill without him. I yearn for that warm summer day when I travel to the airport, windows down, pedal to the floor and stereo loud. My head plays the moment when he emerges from the arrival gate over, and over, and over again. I can already feel his arms around me.
Each day, I feel my chest tighten and my heart swell. Shatter. Repair. Repeat. I stare at the calendar and wish on 11.11 and think, think, think. I wonder what would have happened had we spent more time lazing by that sun-scorched Vegas pool, ignoring the others and keeping our eyes on each other. But I have to move on and think of our future together - years peppered with travel, laughs and gleeful feet, and a bond that ignorance, time and geography will not break.
H.
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
too late
ph: Alex Grazioli
Why? This is a word I have sent out into the cosmic void in the past year since I met you. I lived differently then. I lived happily, my life was beautiful and divine and complete. I did not know loneliness. I never cried, I never felt sad. I loved my husband only. I only had thoughts of him. Then I met you.
If I would have known that I would fall so deeply in love with you I would have never interviewed you for the job. I am 14 years older than you and I’m your boss. This is never going to work, that is crystal clear and deeply painful.
You asked me why you never see me at work. Really? You don’t get that I avoid you deliberately? I wanted to scream at you: “ Do you know what it’s like to want someone who is so close and not be able to touch them. Not be able to kiss them, not be able to make love to them when every inch of your being desires nothing more?” When I was younger I waited for a man like you. Strong and unafraid. Now I am just heartbroken and confused. Why did this happen? Where have you been?
So, please, don’t stand so close to me and try to avoid me. It’s just easier that way. Unless it’s about work and your immediate supervisor can’t help you, don’t speak to me. Running into you on Friday was so hard and unexpected. I trying to be cool and business like, but I saw it. I saw the look in your eye when we were talking, it was but for a moment but the look said, I feel it too. My heart leapt. I just walked away saying to myself: It doesn’t matter. It doesn’t matter. It doesn’t matter. It doesn’t matter. It doesn’t matter. It doesn’t matter.
I wish for so many things, but never that I would not have met you. You are beautiful and funny and great; but you’re 14 years too late.
Nina
Monday, March 19, 2012
Sunday, March 18, 2012
if he only knew
ph: leah goetzel
I've never kissed him. Ever. And that's the kind of punishment I deserve or being afraid. Oh if only knew how many times I've imagined that kiss.
We were so perfect together, I know. It's just the distance that separated us. The distance and us not being prepared for this. I've never wanted that kind of relationship..a long distance relationship. But we had it for a few months. Now... it's just pieces of our broken hearts and ashes. I'm doing my best to move on, but I don't know how to do this. How am I supposed to be strong and self-supportive, when I'm dying on the inside?
How am I supposed to get over it when I feel him dying on the inside every time I hear his voice on the phone?
And I tried.. I tried so damn hard not to answer his phone calls, not to pay that much attention to his text messages. Not to let this break-up tear me apart. But I can't.
If he only knew how much I want to kiss him.
Emma
Saturday, March 17, 2012
Friday, March 16, 2012
Happy Moments - PRAISE ALLAH
Happy Moments - PRAISE ALLAH
Difficult Moments- SEEK ALLAH
Quiet Moments - WORSHIP ALLAH
Painful Moments - TRUST ALLAH
Moment By Moment - THANK ALLAH
The prophet (SAW) said:
The prophet (SAW) said:
"He who remembers his Lord
and who does not remember his Lord,
are like the living and the dead."
(Al-Bukhari) 11/208;Muslim 1/539
1 Day we all will depart on a journey free of cost
1 Day we all will depart on a journey free of cost
Don't worry about seat reservation,its confirmed
& Flight is always on time
Our good deeds will be our luggage
Islam will be our passport
Kalma will be our Visa
&
Grave will be our waiting lounge,
May you travel 2 heaven in 1st Class.
Ameen!!
I ask Allah 2 make u happy,
I ask Allah 2 make u happy,
make u smile,
guide u safely,
though every mile,
grant u wealth,
give u health & most of all grant u paradise!
(Bukhari)
"An honest treasurer
who gives what he is
ordered to give fully,
perfectly and willingly
to the person to whom
he is ordered to give ,
is regarded as one of
the two charitable
persons ... ''
(Bukhari)
Invitation of Namaz is 700 times in Quran,
Invitation of Namaz is 700 times in Quran,
Hazrat Ayesha was the first who counted all qurani ayats,
Quran-e-Pak was completed in 22 years, 5 months & 14 days.
The name of Allah is 2584 times in Quran-e-Pak,
Qurn-e-Pak has translated in 103 languages in the world,
4 Names of masjids r mentioned in Quran-e-Pak
1)Masjid-ul-Haram
2)Masjid-ul-Ziraar
3)Masjid-ul-Nabawi
4)Masjid-ul-Aqsa
Imam Ghazali
Log tung-dasti se jtna darty hain
agar dozakh se dare'n tou dono' se bach jaye'n
Maal se jtni mohabbat karty hain
agar jannat se kare'n tou dono' pa le'n"
Imam Ghazali
"Gift" of "SALAM"
"Gift" of "SALAM"
wrapped with "AFFECTION"
tied with "CARE"
&
sealed with "DUA"
2
keep u safe & happy today & always.
According to HADEES
According to HADEES,
Duaon ki qaboliat k auqaat,
1.Farz namaz k baad,
2.Azan or aqamat k darmian,
3.Tahajjud k waqt,
4.Barish barastay waqt,
5.Dauran-e-safar,
6.Iftaar k waqt,
7.Jummay k din ek ghari,
8.Shab-e-qadar main,
9.Zam zam peetay waqt,
10.Arfa k din maidan-e-arfat main,
11.Quran ki tilawat k baad.
Hazrat Ali [R.A]
"When you have to
depart fro this world
and have to meet
death (eventually)
then why wish delay
(why feel nervous)
about death ..."
Hazrat Ali [R.A]
Islam is University,
Islam is University,
World is class room,
Quran is Sylabus,
Hazrat Muhammad SAW is the teacher,
Allah is the Examiner,
Try to pass the final exam
Jab meri dua qubul hoti hai
Jab meri dua qubul hoti hai
to mai khush hota hu k is me meri RAZA hai,
or jab meri dua qubul nahi hoti
tab me aur ziyada khush hota hu
k is mai ALLAH rabbul izzat ki raza hai.
ZAM ZAM is about 18*14 feet and 13 meters deep well.
ZAM ZAM is about 18*14 feet and 13 meters deep well.
It started 4000 years ago.
Never dried since then never changed taste.
No Algae or Plant growth in the well.
This small well provides water to Millions of people.
Through Heavy motors pulling 8000 liters per second (69.12 core liter in 24 hrs)
& after 24 hours it completes its level in only 11 mints.
Thus its Alter level never decreases.
Perfume yourselves
Perfume yourselves
with the fragrance of
seeking forgiveness
lest the stench of sins pollute you.
irshad-e-Nabwi(S.A.W)
irshad-e-Nabwi(S.A.W)
5Raaton mein mangi Dua Rad
nahi hoti,
1..27 Rajab
2..15 Shaban
3..Eid.ul.Fittar
4..Eid.ul.Uzhha
5..Jumay ki Raat
Pray is an Amazing Exchange
Pray is an Amazing Exchange.
u handover Your Worries to ALLAH.
&
Allah handsover His Blessings to You
Just keep Praying and Remember me too
Watch your Thoughts, they become Words
Watch your Thoughts, they become Words!
Watch your Words, they become Actions!
Watch your Actions, they become Habits!
Watch your Habits, they become Character!
Watch your CHARACTER!, It becomes your DESTINY!!!
BEST in the world:
BEST in the world:
Leader:
A L L A H
Guide:
Q U R A N
LifeStyle:
I S L A M
Person:
M O M I N
Personality:
M U H A M M A D
Routine:
S U N N A T
Law:
S H A R I A T
Lyrics:
A Z A A N
Loyalty:
E M A A N
Request:
D U A
Protection:
S A D Q A
Oath:
K A L M A
Exercise:
N A M A Z
Control:
R O Z A
Charity:
Z A K A T
Tour:
H A J J
Decision:
S A B A R
Work:
T A B L I G H
Action:
N E K I
Hobby:
D U R O O D
Hope:
We'll try 2 be the best INSHAALLAH.
How blessed I m 2 b a Muslim!
How blessed I m 2 b a Muslim!
I say a simple Salam to some,I'm rewarded.
I smile at someone, I'm rewarded.
I pray in Masjid with Jamaat,I'm rewarded 27 times more than those who pray alone.
I begin anything with Bismillah, that action of mine is rewarded.
I think of doing a good deed,I'm rewarded.
I control my temper,I'm rewarded.
I hold the glass with my right hand while drinking,I'm rewarded.
Alhamdulillah!
Prayer is a free outgoing call to GOD
Prayer is a free outgoing call to GOD,
no network or battery problem,
always good signal & all messages sent.
Make prayer a habit and
remember me in your prayer.
Islam Gives 5 Solutions 2 Bring Unity
Islam Gives 5 Solutions 2 Bring Unity
1 Avoid Useless Talk
2 Avoid Pet Names
3 Avoid Making Fun Of Others
4 Avoid Anger
5 Speak Truth.
^~BEAUTIFUL PRAYER~^
^~BEAUTIFUL PRAYER~^
O ALLAH...
Enlighten what is Dark in Me,
Strengthen what is Weak in Me,
Mend what is Broken in Me,
Bind what is Bruised in Me,
Heal what is Sick in Me,
Straighten what is Crooked in Me
and
Revive whatever Peace and Love has Died in Me..!
Ameen
The Day Of Judgment
'' A Group Of People
From My Ummah Will
Continue To Fight In
Defense Of Truth And
Remain Triumphant Until
The Day Of Judgment ...''
His 'NO' is not a 'REJECTION', But a 'REDIRECTION' :
When God gives us 'NO'
for an answer Keep in mind
that there is a much greater 'YES' behind it.
His 'NO' is not a 'REJECTION', But a 'REDIRECTION' :-)
What a nice feeling
What a nice feeling
To
B
In Love
With
AlLah
No Pain
No Disapointment
No worries.
Just
Blessings Blessings
AND
Blessings.
Try to Walk on My Way
Allah Says:-
Try to Walk on My Way,
Ill Make all the Ways Easy for you.
Try to Spend your Wealth in My Way,
I ll Open Oceans of Treasure for you.
Try to Leave your Wills for Me,
I ll Make your Desired Destiny for you.
Try to Bear Pain on My Way,
I ll Open the Doors of My Care for you.
Try to Believe in Me,
I ll Make Sincere Friends for you.
Try to Be Mine,
I ll Make Everyone for you
Pray to Allah Almighty,
Pray to Allah Almighty,
And show some faith n dignity,
Quran be at your side,
Islam giving you a pride,
Sunnah be a light for you,
That will glow and let you do,
All the acts to make you feel,
Nothing but this land is real.
To All Those Suffering From Sadness Or Depression
To All Those Suffering From Sadness Or Depression,
Know That It Isn’t Your Fault.
It Isn’t Because You’re Weak.
It Isn’t Because You’re Just Not Grateful Enough.
It Isn’t Because You’re Just Not Religious Enough.
It Isn’t Because You Don’t Have Enough Faith.
It Isn’t Because ALLAH Is Angry With You.
To All The Well-Meaning People Who Tell You This, Just Smile.
And Know Deep In Your Heart That The Tests Of ALLAH Come In
Different Forms To Different People.
And Know That, By The Help Of ALLAH, Every Test Can Become
A Tool To Get Closer To Him.
And That, Verily, With Hardship Come Ease - And Like All Things
Of This World - This Too Shall Pass.
O Allah, forgive me all my sins
O Allah, forgive me all my sins
Great and small,
The first and the last
those that are apparent
and
those that are hidden.
Ameen
Jummah Mubarak
Deepest" feelings of my heart while praying for you
"Deepest" feelings of my heart while praying for you ,
May "ALLAH"
Convert
Ur
Discomforts
To
Comforts,
Ur
Pains
To
Gains,
Ur
Minimum
To
Maximum,
Ur
Losses
To
Profits,
Ur
Tears
To
Smiles,
Ur
Sorrows
To
Pleasures,
Ur
Bad-wishers
To
Well-wishers,
Ur
Debts
To
Credits,
&
Ur
Good Dreams
To
Realities!
And make these
"Everlasting!
(Ameen).
Things aren't always as they seem.
Things aren't always as they seem.
Umm-e-moosa was told to throw her son in the river
Hazrat yusuf (a.s) was left to die in a well.
Hazrat maryam delivered a child alone.
Hazrat yunus (a.s) was swallowed by a fish
Hazrat ibrahim (a.s) was thrown in the fire.
Yet look at how it turned out for them, in the end.
Allah always has a better plan for us,
Things may not start off too Well,
But the ending is usually better than we except.
If today you are facing hard times,
Have faith and pray for a better tomorrow.
Miracles do happen when
You seek guidance from Allah.
For he is all-knowing,
All-wise & all-powerful
Then as to those who
Then as to those who
disbelieve I will chastise them
with severe chastisement
in this world and the
hereafter and they
shall have no helpers ."
< Al- Qura'an >
take a risk
ph: weheartit
I continuously write and delete this email.
2 days
48 hours
Who knew that those 48 hours would still be with me almost a year later. I went on a family vacation. The trip was drawing to a close and i was thinking that this trip was really lame until my third last night. We went to a show. He sat in front of me. He would look back and I would smile. Nothing all that big.
Then the next day I saw him again at the beach. Once again he would look back and i would smile, wishing I had the courage to say something more than just the hey response to his hey.
Finally I did, and I will forever be grateful that I did. He was sitting and I went over to talk to him. If I could go back to any moment in my life it would be that. We laughed and talked for hours. I never laughed like that in my life or felt that way about anyone ever.
At night a me him and a group of other people we met were sitting by the ledge laughing. I can't explain how I felt.When I had to go back up to my room he was all i could think about.
The next day I was anxious to find him I wanted to talk to him some more. And we did. This may sound like just a simple story but it will stay with me forever. It was almost time for me to leave when we all started swimming in the rain. Finally when I had to go he picked me up and hugged me. I was walking away when I turned around and see him waving and blowing me a kiss.
That moment held the most genuine smile ever.
I still think about him sometimes. Wondering if he thinks about me. But I doubt it. If this experience taught me anything it's that- take a risk and it could be worth it.
-just a girl
I MISS YOU in every beats of heart
I MISS YOU in every beats of heart,
In every blink of my eyes,
In every second of Time and...
In every moment of the Day !
In every blink of my eyes,
In every second of Time and...
In every moment of the Day !
Dilbara Really I Miss U
Wud U Smile At Me If I Smile At U..?
Wud U Say Hello If I Greet U..?
Wud U Talk 2 Me If I Talk 2 U..?
Wud U Add "Too" If I Tell U "I Miss U"..?
Dilbara Really I Miss U
sometimes u misses me
sometimes u misses me
but most of the time i do
some time u sms me !
but most of the time i do!!
sometimes u forget me !!
dts the only thing " I NEVER DO"
That's Why I Always MISS YOU
In The Flower My Rose Is You,
In The Diamond My Kohinoor Is You,
In The Sky My Moon Is You,
I'm Only Body My Heart Is You,
That's Why I Always MISS YOU
I MISS YOU VERY VERY MUChH
Good morning,
i mean
Good Evening
Sorry,
Good Night,
mmm......
I think......?
time is not important...
I just want to say .....
"""I MISS YOU VERY VERY MUChH"""
i mean
Good Evening
Sorry,
Good Night,
mmm......
I think......?
time is not important...
I just want to say .....
"""I MISS YOU VERY VERY MUChH"""
I miss you utna
I miss you utna (Urdu English Mix)
You miss me jitna
I miss u tabse
You miss me jabse
I miss u tabtak
You miss me jabtak
You miss me jaane kabtak But i miss u marte dum tak.
I Miss U All The Time
Good Time
Bad Time
Day Time
Work Time
Off Time
Night Time
Happy Time
Sad Time
Sleep Time
In the Mean Time
I Miss U All The Time
jA mere SMS JA MERE SWEET DOST K PAS JA
jA mere SMS JA MERE SWEET DOST K PAS JA ....
DHEERE SE JANA ...
SHOR MAT MACHANA ..
BZY HO TO..
KUCH MAT KEHNA FREE HOGA TOW....
PYAR SE MISS U KEHNA...
9 lessons in life:
9 lessons in life:
learn to care
learn to smile
learn to cry
learn to give
learn to forgive
learn to share
learn to trust
learn to love
n learn to say
u miss me
Every time I say 'I Miss you
( )" " "( ) ( )""*( )
("( 'o' ) ( 'o' )")
" I MISS YOU"
. Every time I say 'I Miss you
I think i miss u..
S_nrise
B_terfly
pict_re
L_nch
b_s stnd
fig_re
m_sic
all r very boring witho_t yo_.
I think i miss u....
Miss Me When U Smell Any Rose
Miss Me When U Smell Any Rose,
Miss Me When U Taste Any Sweet,
Miss Me When U Look At The Moon,
But Plz Dont Miss Me When U Raise Ur Hand 4 Prayer,,,,
I miss u.i m without u like sky
I miss u.i m without u like sky without stars;like flower without fragrance;like
a heart without feelings
Days are too Busy; Hours are too Few; Seconds are too Fast, but there is always
time for me to ask: How R U? n Hope u r FINE. MISS U!
Never luk for a Gud Face, it\'ll turn old one day; Never luk for a Gud Skin,
it\'ll wrinkle one day; But luk for a loyal heart, that\'ll miss u every day
Knowing a person like u, has made me happy in a million ways and if ever I have
to let u go... I would find a million reasons to make u stay. I miss you.
Dil se dil tak
Dil se dil tak,
Jaan se jaan tak,
Din se raat tak,
Kal se aaj tak,
Aap se mujh tak,
January se december tak,
Meray SmS publish hone se Tumharay SmS parhnay tak,
I MISS U.
it feels nice to miss you
it feels nice to miss you..
So i m missing you...
it feelts nice to think about you..
So i m thinking about you...
it feels nice to disturb you...
So i m disturbing you...
it feels nice to love u..
so I LOVE U DEAR .
Thursday, March 15, 2012
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
hope for friendship
ph: Hannah Davis
We speak every once in a while. Every two weeks or so I can expect a call from you, and its usually two or three weeks to the day that we last spoke. I'm not sure if that reflects on the kind of relationship we have. I would like to say the calls are always the same, but they're not. You've gradually become more affectionate and open, as where I want no part in that. I want it to stop, and more so need it to stop.
You ask if I still love you, if I think of you every day, if I'm seeing anyone, if I'm coming to visit and so on and so forth.
We met very randomly and instantly started up something. At first I had no interest, and you made it very clear that you did. I wanted to remain friends, but that changed pretty quick and I'm not sure how. It's safe to say you grew on me (that's an understatement).
I knew you weren't going to be here forever, or even close. I knew you were going to move back, and sooner than I thought and what you led me on to believe.
We were just friends, and then we had a fling, and then we were together, and then I got scared and we broke up, then we had a fling, and then we got back together, and then we fought, then broke up and then were together again without the actual label.
After a few months you somehow convince me to allow you into my home, I felt an instant regret when I said yes. Not because I didn't want to be able to wake up next to you every morning but because I knew how this was going to turn out. The most passionate and intense two months I have ever had and then just like that, it was swept from underneath me. Within two weeks you had bought a plane ticket and you were gone.
We never had the "talk" before you left. It was never clear what we were this time around. But it sure seemed exclusive before you got on that plane. Within the first two weeks of you being back in your home country I could feel you pulling away, and when I asked, your response would either be 1. I miss you so much or 2. Your constant partying with your friends makes me question this.
Then within a month of being a part of each other we were done. You decided that one morning after my night out with my girlfriends you were going to end it. And that you did. You said its best that we be just friends because this relationship is just going to end up hurting both of us. From then on you didn't speak to me for 2 months.
I don't think you understand, or ever will for that matter, what I went through in those 3 months. Losing someone your in love with to another continent, and that someone also happens to be your best friend, and then within a month of losing them, they drop you like a hot potato? I had no explanation for what happened, I couldn't really piece this puzzle together. How can someone I thought I knew so well just forget about me so quick? Was there someone else? Did he just fall out of love? Or was it actually because he was scared of getting hurt?
I don't think I'll truly know the answer, because the longer I know this person, the more skeletons I find in his closet and come to realize that I don't believe half the shit that he says. I've come to know him better as a person now that we're not together through how he treated me during this really painful experience and truths I've found out about him, than when we were together.
In my eyes, he is not the same person I met over a year ago, nor is he the same person I fell in love with. When I speak to him and see him (skype) I still see the same person, but I feel like I'm speaking to a stranger.
The one thing ( I don't want to call it a lesson) I was able to take from this: I'm an amazing, intelligent, beautiful, genuine, loving, kind-hearted woman, and although I definitely had my share of mistakes in this relationship, I did not deserve the abandonment and pain that could of been prevented with a little honestly and sensitivity on his behalf.
I don't think things with us will ever start up again, but I do believe that there is hope for friendship.
-Anonymous
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Monday, March 12, 2012
you and me
ph: carissa gallo
What happens when you are not sure of what's right anymore? Actually, it's even worse: you know what is right, but you don't have the courage to do it. I know what they say is true: if you love somebody you've got to set them free. If it wasn't true nobody would say it that often, right? The problem is to let the happiness you've always sought and fought to have it. How? How can I manage to do that? Let go, and forget all the obstacles I had to been through? Let you go, just so we avoid to suffer even more further, when our love is even stronger than it is now.
Either I wanted it or not, I know we're not synchronized: different stages in life, different goals and different plans and perspectives. The distance between us will grow with each lack of time, each undone trip to see each other. Those are the times when i ask myself: Is this worth it? But seconds late, I remember our happy moments, how we are complete with each other and how this love that nourishes us is strong and beautiful.
And I know he's been questioning the same thing. But unlike me, hes put into his mind that its not worth it, that as much he want to be with me, he will never can. He says things will never go the way he wants, the way we want. That reality is against us. But, he wont deny how much I'm important to him, how much he loves me. He cant deny that he found the woman he wants to marry with, the woman of his life. So, why cant he fight for our love, for our relationship?! One moment he decides that he wants to be with me forever, no matter what obstacles we'll have to face. The other one, he says hes not my boyfriend anymore, that he cant take this, he cant suffer like that. WHY? I guess its like Katy Perry says " I've gotta a case of love bipolar".
I was sure before, he didn't want to break up. Now I'm not sure of anything. I just wish I could show him,things are not gonna be like him expect them to be: my parents wont be a problem for us, we are gonna be able to do anything we want. We are going to be soooo happy and wonderful things are waiting for us.
I just wish he would take my hand right now, and allow me to show him the bright side: we are meant to be happy together. I only want to hold his hand, be with him, having the love of my life to take care of me. I just want him close, feeling his heart and body close to mine.
I want, and I never wanted that bad, to be sure we gonna have a great future together.
A future where everything will be fine and nothing will come between us. I just want you and our perfectness together. Screw the rest of the world. I don't care. I just need you and I know you feel the same way.
So stop filling your heart, mind and soul with negative thoughts. We want and we can change things and make them perfect. It's you and me against the world. We are gonna be fine.
I truly hope that.
Don't give up yet.
Don't give up on me yet.
You love me and I love you.
I love you more than anything.
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