Dil se dil tak

Dil se dil tak,

Jaan se jaan tak,

Din se raat tak,

Kal se aaj tak,

Aap se mujh tak,

January se december tak,

Meray SmS publish hone se Tumharay SmS parhnay tak,

I MISS U.

it feels nice to miss you

it feels nice to miss you..

So i m missing you...

it feelts nice to think about you..

So i m thinking about you...

it feels nice to disturb you...

So i m disturbing you...

it feels nice to love u..

so I LOVE U DEAR .

i kissed you

ph: weheartit + unknown

hope for friendship

ph: Hannah Davis

We speak every once in a while. Every two weeks or so I can expect a call from you, and its usually two or three weeks to the day that we last spoke. I'm not sure if that reflects on the kind of relationship we have. I would like to say the calls are always the same, but they're not. You've gradually become more affectionate and open, as where I want no part in that. I want it to stop, and more so need it to stop.

You ask if I still love you, if I think of you every day, if I'm seeing anyone, if I'm coming to visit and so on and so forth.

We met very randomly and instantly started up something. At first I had no interest, and you made it very clear that you did. I wanted to remain friends, but that changed pretty quick and I'm not sure how. It's safe to say you grew on me (that's an understatement).

I knew you weren't going to be here forever, or even close. I knew you were going to move back, and sooner than I thought and what you led me on to believe.
We were just friends, and then we had a fling, and then we were together, and then I got scared and we broke up, then we had a fling, and then we got back together, and then we fought, then broke up and then were together again without the actual label.

After a few months you somehow convince me to allow you into my home, I felt an instant regret when I said yes. Not because I didn't want to be able to wake up next to you every morning but because I knew how this was going to turn out. The most passionate and intense two months I have ever had and then just like that, it was swept from underneath me. Within two weeks you had bought a plane ticket and you were gone.

We never had the "talk" before you left. It was never clear what we were this time around. But it sure seemed exclusive before you got on that plane. Within the first two weeks of you being back in your home country I could feel you pulling away, and when I asked, your response would either be 1. I miss you so much or 2. Your constant partying with your friends makes me question this.

Then within a month of being a part of each other we were done. You decided that one morning after my night out with my girlfriends you were going to end it. And that you did. You said its best that we be just friends because this relationship is just going to end up hurting both of us. From then on you didn't speak to me for 2 months.

I don't think you understand, or ever will for that matter, what I went through in those 3 months. Losing someone your in love with to another continent, and that someone also happens to be your best friend, and then within a month of losing them, they drop you like a hot potato? I had no explanation for what happened, I couldn't really piece this puzzle together. How can someone I thought I knew so well just forget about me so quick? Was there someone else? Did he just fall out of love? Or was it actually because he was scared of getting hurt?

I don't think I'll truly know the answer, because the longer I know this person, the more skeletons I find in his closet and come to realize that I don't believe half the shit that he says. I've come to know him better as a person now that we're not together through how he treated me during this really painful experience and truths I've found out about him, than when we were together.

In my eyes, he is not the same person I met over a year ago, nor is he the same person I fell in love with. When I speak to him and see him (skype) I still see the same person, but I feel like I'm speaking to a stranger.

The one thing ( I don't want to call it a lesson) I was able to take from this: I'm an amazing, intelligent, beautiful, genuine, loving, kind-hearted woman, and although I definitely had my share of mistakes in this relationship, I did not deserve the abandonment and pain that could of been prevented with a little honestly and sensitivity on his behalf.

I don't think things with us will ever start up again, but I do believe that there is hope for friendship.

-Anonymous

when i am holding you

ph: weheartit | 29.media

you and me

ph: carissa gallo

What happens when you are not sure of what's right anymore? Actually, it's even worse: you know what is right, but you don't have the courage to do it. I know what they say is true: if you love somebody you've got to set them free. If it wasn't true nobody would say it that often, right? The problem is to let the happiness you've always sought and fought to have it. How? How can I manage to do that? Let go, and forget all the obstacles I had to been through? Let you go, just so we avoid to suffer even more further, when our love is even stronger than it is now.

Either I wanted it or not, I know we're not synchronized: different stages in life, different goals and different plans and perspectives. The distance between us will grow with each lack of time, each undone trip to see each other. Those are the times when i ask myself: Is this worth it? But seconds late, I remember our happy moments, how we are complete with each other and how this love that nourishes us is strong and beautiful.

And I know he's been questioning the same thing. But unlike me, hes put into his mind that its not worth it, that as much he want to be with me, he will never can. He says things will never go the way he wants, the way we want. That reality is against us. But, he wont deny how much I'm important to him, how much he loves me. He cant deny that he found the woman he wants to marry with, the woman of his life. So, why cant he fight for our love, for our relationship?! One moment he decides that he wants to be with me forever, no matter what obstacles we'll have to face. The other one, he says hes not my boyfriend anymore, that he cant take this, he cant suffer like that. WHY? I guess its like Katy Perry says " I've gotta a case of love bipolar".

I was sure before, he didn't want to break up. Now I'm not sure of anything. I just wish I could show him,things are not gonna be like him expect them to be: my parents wont be a problem for us, we are gonna be able to do anything we want. We are going to be soooo happy and wonderful things are waiting for us.

I just wish he would take my hand right now, and allow me to show him the bright side: we are meant to be happy together. I only want to hold his hand, be with him, having the love of my life to take care of me. I just want him close, feeling his heart and body close to mine.

I want, and I never wanted that bad, to be sure we gonna have a great future together.
A future where everything will be fine and nothing will come between us. I just want you and our perfectness together. Screw the rest of the world. I don't care. I just need you and I know you feel the same way.

So stop filling your heart, mind and soul with negative thoughts. We want and we can change things and make them perfect. It's you and me against the world. We are gonna be fine.

I truly hope that.
Don't give up yet.
Don't give up on me yet.
You love me and I love you.
I love you more than anything.

perfect guys don't exist

ph: wideopenspaces
words: bob marley